My life has been a whirlwind the past few days, maybe even the last few weeks… I can’t remember. We’ve done basketball, baseball, work, homework, school, church. I’ve been able to check some things off the “to-do” list. Ray asked me to send him his jacket that he can wear with his uniform. I hadn’t done this when he asked the first few times. It didn’t seem a priority until I saw all the snow pictures… then I felt horrible! Last week was more of a tornado that a whirlwind. But, with God’s help, I managed to get the required tasks done.
Valentine’s Day is just around the corner. We have another important date just before that… our tenth anniversary! If you have a loved one that is far away, you know that you must plan in advance to compensate for the mail service. So, I went to the Hallmark store last week in the midst of my most hectic day. I was able to pick up cards for my boys and even managed a sappy card for my mom (her favorite).
My next step was a Valentine for my man. I stood there staring at the mass of “husband” tabs. I couldn’t even manage to pick up a card. I stared as if at any moment I would developed x-ray vision and be able to read the inside. I didn’t… all I did was cry. Tears were quietly streaming down my face, I was in my own little world. Then, much to her dismay, the clerk asked “are you finding everything ok?”
What happened next reminded me of the I Love Lucy episode of Lucy crying hysterically. I responded “no! You don’t have any cards that say ‘you are in Japan and I won’t see you for two years!'” This poor lady started tip-toeing backwards like she had just walked up on a sleeping lion. Looking back, it was truly funny… but at that moment, not so much. I put on a brave front, but the realization that I won’t see my man for the next few Valentine’s Days… more importantly, our 10 year and after anniversaries made me really sad. Hallmark has a lot of cards, but I didn’t find one that applies to my life right now. I bought the cards I had picked for the boys and mom and left the store.
You will be happy to know that after a few days and life calming a little I went back and conquered Hallmark! I was not going to let those cards or my sadness defeat me. I could not let my feelings get in the way of Ray knowing how much I love him (because surely he wouldn’t know unless he read it on a card, right?!). Each day I am faced with new challenges, some expected and some not. I give it to God and God gets me through. All I can say to tomorrow is… “bring it!”
“But you are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. To the Lord I cry aloud, and he answers me from his holy hill. I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me. Psalms 3:3-5