Military life is the most challenging experience that I’ve had to undertake. You find someone that you love and want to spend the rest of your life with, but you don’t actually get that luxury. I guess we only really wind up with half… maybe 3/4 if we live long enough. Truly, most military marriages end in divorce. It is not for the faint of heart. Putting your marraige in God’s hands makes it easier… but definitely not easy.
Most people try to understand, but they can’t unless they’ve lived it. Just like I can’t truly understand the shoes that you’ve had to fill. We have this person that we love, but we have to give them away for a time to serve a greater cause. We stay at home and manage the family in his absence. We deal with every meal, lost tooth, heartache, bedtime, home repair, on and on… all while trying to hold our own selves up. Most of us are in a place away from our families; we are truly on our own. I am truly blessed to have been led to a wonderful church that has stood by me and picked me up in my time of need. Without these Godly people supporting me and my husband… well, I’ll just say I’m truly thankful.
I get up everyday and mentally mark off yesterday as another day tackled. One less day I have to spend without my love. We’ve been through so much… today is our 10 year anniversary. There was a time when I didn’t know if we’d make it this far. God sent people to us that helped us through. We’ve come through “bad” together… and it makes the “good” so much sweeter. I love that man more than my heart knows how to verbalize. I can’t think of anyone else that I would rather miss this much. This too shall pass and God willing, we will have many years to actually share together. Until then, I will keep my chin up, my eyes on God, and wait for my man to return with my heart.
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7