This week has been crazy. On top of everything else, it was my oldest son’s birthday on Friday. Most of you know all of the little details and tasks that must be completed for birthday preparation. Doing it by yourself, is a challenge. I know that there are many of you out there that manage the same things. With us, there is the added “missing daddy” issue. It’s so hard to have holidays, especially birthdays without daddy. Most of us military families don’t have family close by, so dad not being there is a big deal.
I don’t give myself too much “down time.” When I stop, I get sad. This hit me Wednesday night while at my church fellowship meal. Somehow, I ended up with all kids at my table. Once they were done, I was alone. My mind had a moment to hear all of the family chatter going on around me and my heart ached for my husband. He should have been there with me… we would’ve be laughing… we would’ve been together. I cried.
I am so thankful for Skype. We’ve been through deployments without Skype or email, hoping you don’t miss the occasional phone call. Skype is making this separation a little less painful. The boys and I are able to share our life moments with daddy in real-time. My oldest was able to show daddy his birthday presents, my youngest was able to show daddy the plant he’s been growing, and I was able to laugh with my love. It is so comforting to be able to see his face, hear his voice, have a conversation, laugh. It doesn’t compare to being able to hold his hand, have his arms around me, watch him wrestle with boys, or hear him snoring at night, but it’s something. And right now, something is far better than nothing.
Don’t take what you have for granted. Those little annoyances that your spouse may have… appreciate them. I guarantee you, when they are gone, those are the first things you’ll miss.
“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23