My boys have been out of control the past few days. If you know us or have read some of my past blogs, you know that my boys are on “GO” all the time. Overall they are pretty good kids, but they are both all boy.
Right now, I’m at the end of my crazy stick. I so wish that my husband was here. I think that boys need their father around for love, but also for that intimidation that my 5’3″ body does not provide.
Today was the last day of school… early release day on top of that. I know that caused some extra excitement, but within 30 minutes of school getting out I was ready for school to start. I took them to church this evening. They were running around like crazies. The death stares and threats were not working. One of my friends even got on to them for barreling out the door. Horrifying! After that, threats had graduated to spankings in the bathroom.
During choir practice, they were wrestling around in the pews with another boy. I told them to stop a few times. No luck. (I’m staring to cry while typing this.) At the end of practice, my youngest pushes the other boy into the wall. Then I hear the boy’s mom, my friend, tell her son that he is never allowed to be near my child again… NEVER! Even more HORRIFYING!
I know that their are alot of military wives and single parents out there that are doing a much better job than I am. I’ve totally got the logistics under control… my children, not so much. Some times I have those days hen I just want to give up. I wish for the day when I was able to say “honey, please deal with them.” That day won’t be around for a LONG while. I’m stuck.
Tonight, I told them they would get a real spanking when we got home. By then, I was so angry I couldn’t do it… fear I might hurt them. They knew I was past my breaking point. So, when we got home at 9pm, they cleaned the garage. I don’t know what tomorrow or the next few months of summer vacation will hold… I don’t know how to get two boys under control without my husband… I don’t know how to keep my sanity sometimes… I honestly don’t know much other than God is in control. He knows my name and he will take care of us. In the meantime, I hope that the emotional pain of today subsides and that I have strength for tomorrow.
“My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.” Proverbs 3:11-12