Are your feelings getting in the way of your ministry? Currently, mine are. The key is that I am aware of it and trying, with God’s help, to get a handle on them.
Our church is growing. We are growing in people and we are growing in buildings. With growth comes change. I am open to change, in fact, sometimes I seek it. I like keeping things new and fresh. I know that some people really don’t like change. I can’t say I get it, but I understand that everyone is different.
Anyway, our church is growing… and buddy, Satan is really not happy about it. He is attacking. He is fierce. He has done things as big as delaying the opening to the new building and as small as making the microphones not work right before service on Sunday.
While attacking things, he also attacks people… good people… Christian people. He attacks our minds. He puts doubt, insecurities, and fear in place of confidence, self-worth, and strength. He creeps in… it’s hard to get him out. I have been dealing with feelings of “maybe I’m not needed anymore”… “people who I thought are my friends, really don’t like me”… “where do I fit in now?”… “why does that person get picked, what about me?” And, there you go… what about me?! Is it about me? No… well, hopefully, your answer is no!
I have friends dealing with their own demons.. Satan attacks us where we are, he is very personal about it. What might work against me, may not be what works against you, but guaranteed he knows how to get in your mind. It is powerful… and painful.
Logically, I know that my feelings are not true. It doesn’t make them less real. It’s like when you have a bad dream and wake up mad at someone. That person didn’t really do anything, but you still feel the pain. The feelings are real, but not true.
The awesome ending to the story, is that God wins. I have the book and have read the ending, we win. Satan loses… every time. Knowing that, we have the power to tell Satan to “GET OUT OF OUR MINDS”… “LEAVE US ALONE!”
I will continue to serve God and my church to the best of my God-given ability. I will love with my whole heart, I will give with my whole being. I am battling some pretty powerful feelings, but I will come out victorious because God is on my side. It’s ok to have bad feelings. It’s just not ok to give in to them. You are a child of God or Satan wouldn’t be trying so hard.
“Do not give the devil a chance.” Ephesians 4:27
“So obey God. Stand up to the devil. He will run away from you.” James 4:7
“So stand firm. Put on the belt of truth around your waist. Put the armor of godliness on your chest. Wear on your feet what will prepare you to tell the good news of peace. Also, pick up the shield of faith. With it you can put out all of the flaming arrows of the evil one. Put on the helmet of salvation. And take the sword of the Holy Spirit. The sword of God’s word.” Ephesians 6:14-17